Monday, May 3, 2010

Positive punishment, negative reinforcement? I could never keep the two straight

In an attempt to punish a classmate for not adequately preparing for a diagnostic, my supervisor pulled her from the diagnostic this morning, 10 minutes before we were set to begin. This left me alone to complete a 3 hour diagnostic and write up 2 diagnostic reports regarding the findings while the unprepared clinician got to observe the diagnostic.

BOY, my supervisor sure showed her!

Err...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

For now

Ah, finals weekend. It is the weekend of what I like to call "productive procrastination". A weekend whe I find myself so enamored with the(completely delusional) prospect of free time around the corner. When I think to myself, "after this weekend, I will have TIME. I will have people over, I will RELAX". And so, to prepare for this new life that is (never) to come, I clean. I finally get around to my spring cleaning, and I organize. I vacuum more thoroughly than I have done since...well, probably the last round of finals. I prepare to put winter clothes into storage. I pull weeds from my flower beds. It is a metaphor for my semester: I purge myself of the stress and the grime of the semester by enhancing my environment. I want to shop: to put the doom and gloom of last semester behind me and start fresh. I plant more flowers in the flowerbed, hoping to see that same sense of change for a fraction of the cost.

The reality is, after this week, a new week begins. A new class starts. My clients keep on coming. I get another diagnostic report to write up. I start to think about the fact that in a few short weeks, I am starting about 6 new clients, and only losing 2 from my current caseload. I prepare for whirlwind weekends of family visiting, weddings, and family trips.

But right now, I do loads of laundry and clean all the towels in the house. I finish a take-home exam and start a presentation. I open all the windows in the house and let in the fresh air.

And I feel lighter.
Just until the reality of next week sets in.